Do you remember the old commercial that said "It's 10:00 p.m. Do you know where your children are?"
I feel that way today, but not about my children. It's a voice saying to me "It's 3:00 in the afternoon. Do you know where your muse is?"
I've been home from Bible Study and picking up Z. at preschool for approximately 3 1/2 hours. When I got home, my plan had been to make lunch and then get down to writing a handful of posts that I'd been thinking about throughout the morning. Now, I can barely remember what it was I wanted to write about, I feel tired and grumpy, have lower patience for the kids (which then makes me question my parenting skills since that is when I start yelling), and my motivation has gone downhill faster than an Olympic skier. I also didn't do the laundry I had planned or get the kitchen cleaned up like I wanted to or bake some bread like I thought I would. It is just one of those days when nothing seems to go right. It's not even big things! It's just little things, here and there. That almost makes it worse, because I wonder then "why am I complaining? why am I irritable? It's not like my life is really a mess or tragedy has hit. It's just little things."
It is times like this when I wonder why I even bother to blog. I don't have a huge readership (and that's ok with me; it would probably be way too stressful on me if I did, at this point, and then I'd have to worry about such things as my "brand" and getting a more memorable domain name and feeling like I need to produce more content and feeling like I need to comment on every big topic that comes up, and...and...and...). Plus, there are so many, many excellent blogs out there, and so many that I read and think "hmmm...that's what I was thinking". I mentioned that very thing recently on Twitter to someone, and he said back that he thought he was the only one who did that, and that I should still write what I am thinking.
Discouragement and distraction for writers is nothing new. I know I just read something about this recently in Anne Lamott's book Bird by Bird, but I just spent some time looking for it and can't find it, so you will just have to take my word for it. I promise I am not making it up. At least I hope I am not.
Distraction is hard to come back from, at least, it is for me. I could be in the middle of reading or writing a sentence, get up to change a diaper or respond to one of the myriad times I hear "Mommy!", come back to the computer and have to reread what I was originally doing and then remember what was supposed to come next, and then get up again...this means it can actually take me all day long to write a very short blog post.
I really do not know how so many other mom bloggers do it. When do you find the time to write, uninterrupted? What are your tips and tricks for accomplishing what you want to accomplish in your writing?