When Tony posted about being accused of racism, I didn't even know what “regnant” or “nascent” meant in the statement that had come into question. I didn't understand parts or all of the criticisms I read. I’m not a stupid person, but sometimes, I feel that way when I can’t follow the arguments or conversations. Sure, I have a BA in English Literature. But it’s been 12 years since I received it. Sure, I took some classes in seminary. But it’s been 8 years since I quit. Since then, the majority of my time has been spent taking care of my two children. I’ve worked part-time, here and there, but primarily I have been a stay-at-home-mom.
Unfortunately, though, I have realized that I sometimes have made others to possibly feel stupid as well. At the time when I was in seminary, I also participated in some discussion boards and I loved showing off what I was learning. I loved the feeling that I was winning the argument. Looking back, I was proud that I had more knowledge than the people with whom I was arguing. There are times when I got–or still get today–angry, disdainful, arrogant, and don’t listen to what someone is saying. My pride in my own intellectual ability sometimes wins out over how I treat people.
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